Fever Dream
Been awhile since I've made a post. To tell you the truth, I've been keeping busy. I work full time, on top of juggling my hobbies in my free time after work. I went back to streaming, I've been writing (very indulgent) short stories, doing virtual racing events and just spending time with friends both IRL and in voice calls.
I know I made a post back in November about the election and well, the results of that. Ever since he took office, the utter chaos of news outlets, whether through the usual outlets, social media, whatever, it has all been just a lot to deal with. Watching EO after EO be signed, filled with such hate and vitriol, it quickly became unnerving. Specifically his unhealthy obsession with DEI and trans people. Then there's Elon just, trifling through so much personal data and inner workings of the federal government, treating it like a business that needs to be slashed up for better profit creation. But not gonna ramble on about those things, I've seen enough, I've yelled about it enough.
The past two months have felt like a fever dream, to tell you the truth. Trying to focus on my personal life far more than seeing what was going on outside of my social bubble has not been easy, but necessary for my own mental health. I'm anxious, I'm scared for my close friends, especially those that are trans. The healthcare they rely on is slowly being ripped away and destroyed, while in that process they are being demonized and pinned as "the problem" for the US doing "bad".
But what else do I see and hear? Honestly, I've noticed the flamboyant support for Trump starting to wane surprisingly. It's slow, but it's waning. Two months ago, I saw trump flags on people's trucks, homes, even businesses. People being vocal about support for him. Now? with living costs going up again, the stock market tanking, trump pissing off our neighboring countries, wanting to colonize Gaza, conquer Greenland and steal the Panama Canal, people aren't so loudly supporting him. As of the day I'm writing this, the disapproval rate with the normie republicans was rising noticeably. Trump is flopping on promises outside of discriminating against minorities harshly, and even then people are not happy unless they are full blown hateful white nationalist bigots.
Despite seeing this dynamic play out, I've felt more aimless than I ever have since moving into my current apartment. I fear for the well being of myself and my friends locally because of the presence of white nationalist militia members scattered around my town. My ultimate fear is those people getting emboldened by rhetoric said by the current president and taking matters into their own hands. Not a matter of "if" but "when".
I hate being negative, heck I put off posting on here because I would end up using this as an outlet to vent nothing but negativity. That's not why I made this blog page, honestly. But I'm not trying to block out the reality of the situation, I would help but having only myself to ultimately rely on, I'm worried about anything that could cost me my job. But I don't have the mental energy to invest in this, but I support those that do.
I want to get back into regular posts on here, share my hobbies and thoughts on those, heck even do a 1 year overview about how ownership with my Mazda has gone. Being a writer, keeping a blog is both fun and keeps my writing skills sharp. Of course, then comes the topic of what sorts of things do I write about? I did want to delve more into the massive lore and world building I have done with my characters as well. This is my blog after all, I can do as I please!
Until then, stay safe. See ya next time!